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Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Wednesday

Happy Hump Day!

Today I will be grateful that I have a job.

Today I will be grateful I have a good marriage.

Today I will be grateful we have a home to live in.

Today I will be grateful I have a family and friends that love me.

Today I will be grateful for my life.

I will be positive today. I will figure out my hopes and dreams. I will be a positive influence as a women in this world.

Have a good Wednesday everybody.

xoxo, J

Monday, October 25, 2010

Monday

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A total case of the Mondays today!

I had an amazing weekend! Thursday night my friend Michelle got in from Florida!
Here is a breakdown of our weekend!

Thursday night: Toi Thai and a drive through Hollywood :)

Friday: Coffeebean. Did makeup for a wedding. Ate In n Out for lunch. Drove by CBS Radford in Studio City. Drove down to Hollywood through Crescent Heights. Saw Hollywood and Highland: Kodak Theather, Walk of fame, Chinese Theather, Forever XXI (LOL), Roosevelt Hotel, etc. Sprinkles cupcakes. Drove the 101 in rush hour. Dinner at Sagebrush Cantina in Calabasas.

Saturday: Drove to the Hollywood sign. Went to a super secret beautiful park in Hollywood. Saw Omar Epps in his Rolls Royce next to us. Saw the studio the hubby is working at. Passed by UCLA. Drove through Brentwood. Venice Beach. Huntington Beach. Ate dinner at Ruby's on the pier in Huntington. Went to a bar in Hollywood. Jauquin Phoenix was right next to us in the bar. Went to Tattoo Mania. Bed after 3am.

Sunday: Watched a movie. Disneyland. LAX. Dinner with Aunt Jackie, Uncle Bill, Bernadette and D.

Our weekend was crazy busy but amazing!

Seeing my husband with our nephew at Disneyland was amazing. He is so ready for us to have a baby. I can't wait until we have our own bundle of joy.

xoxo, J

Thursday, October 7, 2010

So EXCITED!

I just got great news! My beautiful friend
is coming to visit me from Florida!
She will be here for the weekend of October 22nd and I can't wait!
We are going to go explore Southern California and have a lot of fun!!!! I have SO many ideas for us!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Beautiful

This blog post is amazing.

Please read and pass this on.

http://laurenalexis1.blogspot.com/2010/10/with-love.html

I cried the whole time I was reading this blog post.

xoxo, J

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Thinking...

I am wide awake. This is common for me when I have a lot running through my mind.

There are so many thoughts I have been having recently that I have found it hard to get on here.

First, I have been researching nursing programs. I have finally decided that for everything I want out of a career it would be a good fit for me. I have never known what I wanted to do with the exception of being a mom. It has taken me a long time to figure this out.

I started figuring out what I wanted in a career through a therapist I used to see. She was able to help me focus on what was important to me and what I would want from a career. Now I am terrified I won't do well in school. I have been to college and always avoided science classes at all costs. I will now have to go take 4 science classes to get into nursing school. This scares the crap out of me!

Second, BABY.

My heart wants a baby. My logic says to wait. My husband wants a baby.

My heart still breaks over the loss of our pregnancy in July. I think every day how I should be pregnant and getting bigger with a baby. I think about our baby every day.

Now I know everybody that has kids always says you can't plan everything, everything will always work out and that there is never a good time to have a baby.

WELL my brain is going crazy with all of this. My heart aches every time I see a baby. When I see my husband holding or playing with a baby my heart drops. I can't help feeling what I feel but I am a planner or at least I always try to be.

My brain always has this picture with a timeline in it of where things should be and what age I should be at doing certain things. Now most people I know will say (I say it also) expectations are planned disappointments. Nothing goes as planned. I know I've REALLY tried in the past. I try and try to not have this time line in my brain but somehow it always creeps back in.

There are a few reasons I want to wait on having a baby.
1. Money shortage
2. Nursing school

Ok maybe not a few maybe only two reasons... hmmmm.... I'm puzzled now. Oh wait and my job sucks. I can't imagine being gone from a new baby 5 days a week! (This is another plus of nursing. 3 12 hours days is full time)

The reason I want a baby. My heart and my husband both want to start a family. Matt is the love of my life. I want nothing more than to start a family with him. I know with him our family regardless of how much money we have or what we do will be perfect.

Matt knows every day I think about a baby. He told me today he wants me to get pregnant (my heart melts).

Awhile ago I got a fortune cookie I keep in my iphone case that says "Forget the doubts and fears that are creeping into your heart". When I got this Matt looked at me, I knew then what he was thinking without him saying it. BABY.

I need to do some praying about this. Please feel free to leave comments with helping words or what you think.

xoxo, J