Happy Tuesday!

Everybody in my office is gone at a conference. I am literally the only one for our company here right now. A nice little change :)

I would first like to say Happy Birthday to my Big Sis Robyn! 

I am in an really good mood today! 

We are approaching Christmas! I can't help but think of the waking up Christmas morning at my mom's house with beautiful decorations and a huge tree. My mom would always make it extra special. I remember there being Santa foot prints from the ash from our fireplace. She always knew how to make things special. 

For some reason this year I keep thinking of her house. It was the house I grew up in. The house I loved. The house I would want for my kids to grow up in. I will always have pictures of that amazing house in my mind. My moms house is gone now and in its place a new home with new memories. It almost makes me less sad knowing nobody else can be in my house (selfish but after my moms passing there are some things I get to be selfish about).  I will find some pictures of my moms house to share with you soon!

On that note, Matt and I have to find a new place to rent. Such a bummer but we can't deal with the condition our place is in any more. Our landlord refuses to fix anything and it has been over a year. So we are on the look out for new places that won't break the bank! If you have good websites to find rentals please let me know! 

Happy Tuesday! May god bless you today! 

Who is shopping for a cause this year?

If you are shopping for a cause this year please check out Poppie Lane which you can find on Living By Faith

By shopping on Poppie Lane you will be helping bring baby Tucker home to be with his family!

Check out Laurens amazing blog and see her journey to bring Tucker home from Ethiopia!

Cold Hands, Warm Hearts

It's finally the day I have been waiting for!

I get to share my goodies that I received from my new blog friend MaryHelen!!!


I was so excited to participate in this blog exchange! It was so much fun!

My package arrived and I could not wait to open it!!! I was tempted to wait but I couldn't contain myself and opened my package! It was wrapped super cute and contained SO many cute goodies! Here are some pictures of the amazing gloves, the adorable little bag (that had Burts Bees lip goodies!!!) {I love lip gloss}, an adorable note pad, and hot cocoa!!! LOVE EVERYTHING IN MY PACKAGE!!!

Weekend Recap

Things have been crazy!

Friday night I had dinner with one of my lovely friends Nikki. We met in Pasadena and had a great dinner and some yummy drinks. After we decided to go see my other half working at the bar. We surprised Matt, hung out with the guys, and had some fun!

I always wake up when Matt gets home from working at the bar.

He got home really late 5am. I was like what?!? Come to find out some very dramatic things happened after Nikki and I left. There was a fight (thats normal, happens all the time) but what happened next is just mind blowing. A man that was at the bar got in his car drunk trying to hit some of the guys involved in the fight and ended up hitting one of Matts friends. He is still in the hospital with a broken pelvis OUCH. I wish him a very speedy recovery. He is in my prayers. Im truly glad that he is still alive after being hit by a car.

Saturday I got to see my sister, brother in law and nephews! I hadn't seen them in awhile so it was super nice to spend a little bit of time with them!

Saturday night we went and celebrated Matts little brothers birthday. Happy Birthday Danny!

Sunday we headed down to Huntington Beach for dinner with some of our amazing friends!

I love that I got to spend time with my hubby all weekend. He makes me fall in love with him more every day

Today I started my run/ walk program! It's the start to something new and I love it!

Blog News: Cold hands Warm Heart

So exciting!!!

Two amazing bloggers are doing Cold Hands, Warm Hearts swap!

Go sign up! You have until November 11 or until the 100 slots are filled!

Wednesday

Happy Hump Day!

Today I will be grateful that I have a job.

Today I will be grateful I have a good marriage.

Today I will be grateful we have a home to live in.

Today I will be grateful I have a family and friends that love me.

Today I will be grateful for my life.

I will be positive today. I will figure out my hopes and dreams. I will be a positive influence as a women in this world.

Have a good Wednesday everybody.

xoxo, J

Monday

A total case of the Mondays today!

I had an amazing weekend! Thursday night my friend Michelle got in from Florida!
Here is a breakdown of our weekend!

Thursday night: Toi Thai and a drive through Hollywood :)

Friday: Coffeebean. Did makeup for a wedding. Ate In n Out for lunch. Drove by CBS Radford in Studio City. Drove down to Hollywood through Crescent Heights. Saw Hollywood and Highland: Kodak Theather, Walk of fame, Chinese Theather, Forever XXI (LOL), Roosevelt Hotel, etc. Sprinkles cupcakes. Drove the 101 in rush hour. Dinner at Sagebrush Cantina in Calabasas.

Saturday: Drove to the Hollywood sign. Went to a super secret beautiful park in Hollywood. Saw Omar Epps in his Rolls Royce next to us. Saw the studio the hubby is working at. Passed by UCLA. Drove through Brentwood. Venice Beach. Huntington Beach. Ate dinner at Ruby's on the pier in Huntington. Went to a bar in Hollywood. Jauquin Phoenix was right next to us in the bar. Went to Tattoo Mania. Bed after 3am.

Sunday: Watched a movie. Disneyland. LAX. Dinner with Aunt Jackie, Uncle Bill, Bernadette and D.

Our weekend was crazy busy but amazing!

Seeing my husband with our nephew at Disneyland was amazing. He is so ready for us to have a baby. I can't wait until we have our own bundle of joy.

xoxo, J

So EXCITED!

I just got great news! My beautiful friend is coming to visit me from Florida!
She will be here for the weekend of October 22nd and I can't wait!
We are going to go explore Southern California and have a lot of fun!!!! I have SO many ideas for us!

Beautiful

This blog post is amazing.

Please read and pass this on.

http://laurenalexis1.blogspot.com/2010/10/with-love.html

I cried the whole time I was reading this blog post.

xoxo, J

Thinking...

I am wide awake. This is common for me when I have a lot running through my mind.

There are so many thoughts I have been having recently that I have found it hard to get on here.

First, I have been researching nursing programs. I have finally decided that for everything I want out of a career it would be a good fit for me. I have never known what I wanted to do with the exception of being a mom. It has taken me a long time to figure this out.

I started figuring out what I wanted in a career through a therapist I used to see. She was able to help me focus on what was important to me and what I would want from a career. Now I am terrified I won't do well in school. I have been to college and always avoided science classes at all costs. I will now have to go take 4 science classes to get into nursing school. This scares the crap out of me!

Second, BABY.

My heart wants a baby. My logic says to wait. My husband wants a baby.

My heart still breaks over the loss of our pregnancy in July. I think every day how I should be pregnant and getting bigger with a baby. I think about our baby every day.

Now I know everybody that has kids always says you can't plan everything, everything will always work out and that there is never a good time to have a baby.

WELL my brain is going crazy with all of this. My heart aches every time I see a baby. When I see my husband holding or playing with a baby my heart drops. I can't help feeling what I feel but I am a planner or at least I always try to be.

My brain always has this picture with a timeline in it of where things should be and what age I should be at doing certain things. Now most people I know will say (I say it also) expectations are planned disappointments. Nothing goes as planned. I know I've REALLY tried in the past. I try and try to not have this time line in my brain but somehow it always creeps back in.

There are a few reasons I want to wait on having a baby.
1. Money shortage
2. Nursing school

Ok maybe not a few maybe only two reasons... hmmmm.... I'm puzzled now. Oh wait and my job sucks. I can't imagine being gone from a new baby 5 days a week! (This is another plus of nursing. 3 12 hours days is full time)

The reason I want a baby. My heart and my husband both want to start a family. Matt is the love of my life. I want nothing more than to start a family with him. I know with him our family regardless of how much money we have or what we do will be perfect.

Matt knows every day I think about a baby. He told me today he wants me to get pregnant (my heart melts).

Awhile ago I got a fortune cookie I keep in my iphone case that says "Forget the doubts and fears that are creeping into your heart". When I got this Matt looked at me, I knew then what he was thinking without him saying it. BABY.

I need to do some praying about this. Please feel free to leave comments with helping words or what you think.

xoxo, J

The week

Well this week has been really rough.
My job is really wearing on me. I don't deserve to be worn down every day. My anxiety is at an all time high and I hate it. I have started looking for a job and hopefully I will find something soon. Please keep me in your prayers.

Last night Matt and I were supposed to go to the premier of Modern Family. Matt ended up working 13 hours and there was just no way we would have been able to make it. So we had a date night at BJs instead and I'm so happy because I was spending time with the love of my life!

Labor Day weekend at Pismo Beach

For Labor Day weekend we got to go camping on the beach at pismo! There were so many people! We had a big group with us and had the best time!